Terrors in the night

Posted on April 15, 2011 | Leave a comment

As a parent of young children, I have learned to cope with fairly interrupted sleep.  If it’s my daughter getting tangled up in her blankets or my son needing to go to the bathroom at 2 a.m., I’ve grown accustomed to moving from a deep sleep to wide awake in a matter of moments.  I’m not a great night-owl, though….when I’m up with my kids, my primary thought is “how can I settle this issue as quickly as possible to get back to sleep?”  My kids are pretty good sleepers in that once their issues are addressed, they generally go back to bed quickly and without a problem.

Until now.

My little Bryson has had a few nights now of what are generally known as “night terrors.”  They are not nightmares, where the kids may be upset but can be comforted one they wake.  During these events, the children aren’t actually awake, but screaming and crying in their sleep.  Apparently it happens to about 30% of children between the ages of 3 and 6.  They look and act “awake” – eyes open, crying and upset – but the brain is still functionally sleeping.

This has only happened to Bryson three times in the last year, so it is far from becoming a pattern – a reality I’m grateful for.  But when it has happened, it is dreadful….watching his little body toss and turn and cry without being able to comfort him.  We’ve tried virtually all tricks in the book to help him “wake up,”short of putting him in a cold shower (a case where it seems like the cure may be worse than the disease).   Words,  hugs and kisses don’t help – his beloved stuffed animals have no impact –  soft music, gentle touch or turning on the lights only agitate him more.

Last night, I climbed in bed with him as he cried and shrieked, eyes open but clearly not seeing.  I laid down with him quietly and stayed there without saying anything, my hand barely touching him.  Amazingly, after a few minutes, he started to quiet down and curled his little body up next to me.  As he cozied in, I whispered “It’s ok, honey.” As soon as the words were out of my mouth, his whole body tensed up and we were off again! Finally he calmed down enough to curl up again, my hand just barely touching him, and he slept peacefully the rest of the night.

Our desire to “do something” so strong.  To do something, to say something, to offer something to someone who is having a hard time or is in pain.  Sometimes, those offers of help are just what people need and are, in fact, amazingly helpful.  But sometimes – every once and a while, as Bryson taught me last night – it is best to just be there.

Here’s to a better night tonight!

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Thoughts on Minns

Posted on April 12, 2011 | Leave a comment

I stayed in Boston this weekend to attend the Minns Lecture Series at the First Church in Boston.  The lectures are done by Unitarian Universalists and can be on a lot of topics based on the idea of “creative theological and religious advancement.”  This year was a series of lectures – 6 panalists in all – discussing the questions of where we are today and where we want to go in the future.

First of all, the lectures were AMAZING.  Can I just give a shout-out to my brilliant colleagues who can write and speak with such skill and vibrancy?  Let’s all say AMEN!  (Which a lot of us did.  It was good.)

Everyone spoke from a different perspective, and I’m not going to try to summerize all of their thoughts and ideas here.  But the theme that ran through all of the lectures and the discussion panels was something we’ve spoken a lot about here in Norton – spiritual depth.  It is the idea that churches can no longer be content to be community gathering spots, or rely on the idea that people will go to church out of habit.  Our churches must offer compelling spiritual depth for anyone who wants to attend.  Or to state it simply, we must have a spiritual reason for being.

I keep the book “A Purpose Driven Church” prominently placed next to my desk.  I don’t always read the book, and have actually found it less helpful than some other books about churches.  But I keep it there because I have to always, always, ALWAYS remember the title.  A church without a purpose should close its doors.  A church with purpose – with spiritual depth, with a reason for being, who knows and is not afraid of the great religious questions – that’s an exciting place to be!

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Generations

Posted on March 29, 2011 | 2 Comments

I recently took a survey on Facebook to learn how “Millennial” I am.  The top score you can have is 100, and I scored a 69 – right in there given that I am either a Gen X’er  or Millennial (depending on the source) with no tattoos and I maintain a landline.  (Our house is a dead cell zone.  Have you ever wondered if the phone companies planned that?)

I find the generational distinctions in our society fascinating.  I grew up with Boomer parents, and learned the songs of Cat Stevens and “Free to Be You and Me” before I was in kindergarden.  When I was in high school and college, there was a lot of talk about how my generation was “apathetic” and “without direction or drive.”  We didn’t have a civil rights movement or a cause to rally around.  Generation X was the first big divorce generation – huge numbers of us grew up with two houses,  step-families or single parents.

We were fragmented generations, and still are today.  Most of us have a very different sense of what “society” and “community” look like than our parents and grandparents did.  Some people argue that the structures of society (like churches and social clubs) are dying because Generations X and Millennial just don’t care.

I think we do care.  I think we care tremendously about connection and action, but I don’t know that we do community the way it was done 40 years ago.  Perhaps some of us do – after all, social clubs are not dead and gone – but stats show that large numbers of us find meaning and ways to connect in different ways than the old institutions.  

I’m fascinated to see what the future will bring!

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What is Unitarian Universalism – in 30 seconds?

Posted on March 21, 2011 | Leave a comment

When I meet with people who have heard of Norton Unitarian Church and are interested in what we are doing, inevitably the question comes up: “So what is Unitarian Universalism all about?  What is this church about?”

It is a complicated question that, realistically, takes a lifetime to answer.  It’s also one that requires an answer in under thirty seconds.  My answer is not terribly eloquent but it gets the point across.

“Unitarian Universalism is generally left-leaning.  We were the first people to ordain women to the ministry, and we accept all people, regardless of race, class, or sexual orientation.  That’s a core value of our faith.  At Norton Unitarian we believe we need to love all people and to think.  Doing both at the same time can be very difficult, but it is what we believe we are called to do.”

To love all people and to think.  That’s the heart of what has kept me in the UU faith for the last several years, and it is what has sustained my ministry.  It is why I keep coming back to this religion, and why I have faith in what we do – what Norton Unitarian Church is all about.

It’s not an easy thing to do, at least not for me.  One of my favorite articles on this subject was written by UU minister Meg Barnhouse and published not long after the terrible shooting in the Unitarian Universalist Church in Knoxville, Tennessee.  Meg wrote about how she had met the shooter at a Unitarian Universalist summer camp several years before, and how she had struggled with his views at that time.  She wrote:

“We love to think of ourselves as open-minded, but it’s hard for us to be open-minded toward certain people and their views. Maybe it’s just me that has a hard time, but I think I’m not alone in this. I argued with him, too. I do affirm the worth and dignity of every person, but I never promised to affirm the worth and dignity of every idea. Some ideas are oppressive and not well thought out. They lead to violence and injustice and really bad behavior. I try to argue with respect and kindness, but it’s hard when the person you’re talking to acts like a jerk. If I were the Dalai Lama or a UU saint, I would be able to, and I hope that will come in the future, but I am sure not there yet.”

To love all people and to think.  To love the shooters who are terrorizing our churches and schools and grocery store parking lots, while knowing that what they are doing is completely and totally, gut-wrenching wrong.  It’s not easy to do both of these, at least not for me.  Sometimes I would much rather sit in judgement of another person than engage in the struggle of loving and thinking.

To me, a religion needs to be something that we strive to live up to.  It needs to be something that we can’t “complete” or “be without knowing it.”  It has to be something that guides us – something that helps us to live better lives and become the best people we can be.

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Anchored in Unitarian Universalism

Posted on March 18, 2011 | 6 Comments

When I was twenty-two years old, I tried to convert.

I was raised Unitarian Universalist.  Daughter and granddaughter of Unitarian Universalists, child of active church board members and a student at the local Montessori school, I was steeped in UU values and beliefs.  And like many people, I wanted to experiment – I wanted to engage with a different faith than that I’d known my whole life.

I had studied religion in college, and was fascinated by the way that people’s religious beliefs influenced their lives and their decisions.  I wanted to see what else was out there – perhaps a religion that could offer me more guidance, something that could give me the concrete answers on cosmological questions that Unitarian Universalism never had.

So I began to attend other churches, and even a synagogue.  I visited the Episcopalians, the Reform Jews and the UCC’s.  I shared coffee with Baptists and sang with the Methodists.  I was inspired by many of their stories and loved that they said the same thing every week.  As I dabbled, however (and really enjoyed the Baptists, I’ll be honest!), I found I was running into a significant hitch.  I didn’t believe what these churches were saying.

They said they had the answer.  Most of them repeated the Nicaean Creed, and they relied on the Bible and the Torah for guidance.  But when it came right down to it, it didn’t seem to me that they didn’t know any more about the meaning of the cosmos than my Unitarian Universalist communities. They had beliefs and hopes, but they didn’t have the answers in their theology.  Not answers I could believe.

So I came home.  I returned back to the wrestle-with-the-questions community I had been raised in and started to look again for answers.  For guidance on how to make the best decisions I could.  For a community that could sustain me as I faced living in a world that isn’t always pretty, but sometimes more beautiful than I can believe.  And here in this church, I found something that was amazing – I found Unitarian Universalist theology.  And with that, I found an anchor that helped me understand the questions; an anchor that helped – and helps! – me live my life.

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The Progress of Women

Posted on March 8, 2011 | 3 Comments

Sexism looks different than it did 100 years ago.

I know that 100 years ago, sexism was blatant and appalling, and involve the kinds of atrocities that we thankfully rarely see any more….or if we do see them, we have the decency as a society to be horrified by them.  Sexism used to involve sexual harassment and brutality and no representation in Congress.  It used to mean being barred from professions and no right to reproductive choice.

Today, sexism looks different.  It’s less blatent.  It’s often under the carpet.  It’s harder to define and harder to prove.  In my experience of sexism today (which I once naively believed I would never have), it is still prevalent.  It is unquestionably better than is used to be – without a doubt!  We have much to be proud of in society today compared to 100 years ago.

In my life I’m blessed to not often be subject to “old school” sexism.  I still get the average amount of irritating catcalls when I’m walking down the street in the summertime and the kids are home with my husband.  There is one convenience store near our house that I won’t shop at because of the demeaning way they treat me, and apparently all women who enter their shop.  But that’s about it.

What I notice far more prevalently, however, are the comments.  The comments people make to me, and sometimes to my friends.  The comments like “You plan to keep working, even though you have small children?  Who will take care of them?” “You know you can’t expect that kind of pay, why are you asking for so much from them?”  ”I really don’t think you capable of that that”  and (my personal favorite) “Ssshhhh”

We’ve won a place at the table, but the table isn’t a place of equals.  And sometimes, “sssshhhh” can be hard to fight.  Because sometimes they are right and you do need to sshhh.  But then you ask yourself……how much do the men need to ssshhh?  Not so much, it turns out.  And how many men are “capable” of the things women are not “capable” of?  Quite a few, as it turns out.  And let’s not even get started on the pay and who’s taking care of the children…….

When I graduated from college at twenty-two years old, I really did not think I would experience much sexism in my life.  I felt sure that my mother and grandmother’s generations had taken care of that, and it was hard to learn that I was wrong.  However, we have achieved so much in the last 100 years.  Let’s make the next 100 even better!

Happy 100th International Women’s Day!

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On the Bus to Heaven

Posted on March 2, 2011 | 1 Comment

One of my favorite books is C.S. Lewis’ The Great Divorce.  I don’t agree with all of Lewis’ theology, and am certainly not a fan of his distinctly modernist understandings of good and evil.  But I *love* the ideas presented in The Great Divorce, specifically the imagery he puts forth for Heaven and Hell.

The basic premise of the book is fairly simple.  Hell, or Purgatory, is a place that a lot of people live in.  It is a grey, dismal town with no sense of community and a lot of fish and chips shops.  Everyone who wants to is free to board the bus, a vehicle “blazing with golden light” that will take people to Heaven.   Once in Heaven, the newcomers have to face radical adjustments due to the astonishing beauty that is around them.  The newcomers are guided by angels, who both support them and assure them that with time, the beauty and joy of Heaven will become natural to them.  But as the story continues, we watch nearly all of the newcomers re-board the bus and go back to Hell….because they would rather be in a place they know and have some false sense of control, than in a place of beauty where they have to work to accept a new and better life.

Sometimes, we would so much rather live a known Hell than work to be part of a new Heaven.  The pull to live in the known rather than the unknown is astonishingly strong, even when then known is grey, dreary, and stretches on in loneliness forever.  Lewis makes no bare bones in The Great Divorce that becoming acclimated to beauty is painful at first.  He talks about how it is hard for the newcomers to walk on the grass because it is so sharp, and to see all of the beauty because it is so bright.

What I love about this book is not the pictures painted of Heaven and Hell – though I do think there is something fabulous about a grey Hell that smells like old fish – but the fact that through this allegory, Lewis acknowledges how hard change is.  In this story, people are voluntarily LEAVING HEAVEN to go back to Hell….simply because it is a place they know, and one that does not require them to change.

Change is hard.  Seriously, change is hard.  Hard and scary and sometimes feels impossible.  But I love Lewis’ challenge – shall we live in a known Hell or a brave new Heaven?  Can we bear to face the joy that can be ours?  In our lives, in our churches, in our communities and our own souls?

What does your Heaven look like?

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